While I was walking around at church yesterday morning, a thought came to me - "My husband is known among the elders and respected by those he serves with." I have to admit that this was a rather odd thought at the time it came to me not to mention that it brought up a reminder of a moment of "jealousy" about a year ago. You see, I began serving at Celebration church many months before Will even considered it and the only people I knew were the few that were in the room I served in and the nursery coordinator. Other than those few people, no body in the church "knew" me. It didn't bother me too much until Will started serving with the Ushers/Security and then he knew a lot of the pastors, staff, ect. After Will had been serving a short while, I began to meet all of the people that he met, but I also became know as "Will's wife" or just "Mrs. Huggins."
WHAT ABOUT ME, YOU KNOW, MY NAME IS GAIL!
Well, I obviously got over it and over time, people began to know my first name, not just my last. I can't remember if I ever told Will about my jealousy, but I covered it pretty well from others.
I got over it, realizing that it's not now nor was then about--yeah, you guessed it, ME. Ok, so back to the original thought....God convicted my heart with that thought, "My husband is known among the elders and respected by those he serves with." At that very moment, I realized that I would much rather be known by the respect my husband has gained than by someone just simply knowing my name. It was a proud moment...I realized and looked back over the past couple of years and I see and love the progress that God has made in my life.But what is more exciting is that progress that HE has made in Will's life. I am honored to be the wife of such a wonderful man, a man who has loved me through a lot, is the best father in the world to Alyssa, but most of all for realizing the potential he has in God.
"It brings honor and glory to a wife when her husband has gained honest respect for the service he has done. And a husband won't be respected until his wife respects him first."
Thank you, Jesus, for being a part of our lives. The work that You did on Calvary was only the beginning. The work You do in our hearts is the saving grace of this world. Thank you, Father for knowing my needs beyond the flesh and filling my life with the best Blessings You could have given, Will and Alyssa. Amen!!!
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there is a shifting going on in your husband's life, he is on his way to his destiny he needs his wife to support him and honor him. I see the growth in both of you Continue to do the Will of GOD. May God richly bless you and your family.
Gail,
Your post almost brought me to tears. I guess because in a sense, I've struggled with that myself. When Bobby and I first started dating we had both established ourselves as individuals in the church, but all of the sudden I was meeting all these new people (mostly men) who knew me as Bobby's girlfriend. I honestly do love being known as his woman, but when it came to certain people I was like, "I am my own person" - I've sort of always had that attitude. I had to confess to him earlier this year that I thought I was so scared to lose my identity in marriage. I had to confess because I needed to get it out to stop the enemy from continuing to let it grow. I told him that I knew that would eventually lead to jealousy and then competition with my husband, when we're supposed to be on the same team. I hate that about myself - that tendency. But when I let go, I just stopped caring as much. I had to remember that my identity is in Christ and Christ alone - in nothing I do and in no one else. I am and always will be His precious daughter, His princess.
I am so glad we've all gotten to be close. Bobby and Will hit it off so quickly and I just continue to feel more and more close with you. I just see us all getting closer and I'm so thankful and grateful to have such wonderful friends. Bobby and I have truly been blessed. To see you and Will growing has been amazing and how you guys are with Alyssa is truly an example. I enjoy your blogs because they're so down to earth and real. You motivate me to get my act together and start mine for real!!! Haha.
Anyway, it can be so humbling to be the quiet, strong force behind our men, huh? But gosh, I know God put me a steward over Bobby to be by his side the rest of his life. I soooo don't always get it right, but I'm thankful when He reminds me of what a jewel I have in having his heart. We have so much power with their hearts in our hands. We have the power to make them or break them. And when selfish tendencies want to seap in it can be so hard to not take advantage, but I thank God He gives me the will do to the right thing - or at least come back and fess up and say I'm sorry... =)
gail, you are so freakin awesome! i love your blog. i know we aren't doing shine girls anymore this summer, but maybe we could meet up for lunch or something. let me know. in the mean time, i'll be reading your bloggy blog.
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